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the man in the mirror18th May 2022 |
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He is standing opposite me. He looks so different, like I don’t know him. He seems happy and has a friendly smile on his face. He seems to be confident in a way that I can't understand. He seems serene, calm and at peace. It is disconcerting because he looks somehow familiar to me. It confuses me to see him so differently. It can hardly be that he is doing so much better than I am. It's incomprehensible to me how two lives can be so different. I'm still standing here. I look at the face facing me. I try to smile, but I can' t manage to do so. I am not happy and contentment is a foreign concept to me. I want to be confident, but I am just confused and full of questions. What is he doing here? What am I doing here? Why do we look so much alike and yet we are so different? Who is he? How can I talk to him? Why doesn't he understand me? Why can't I understand him? What do I have to do to get closer to him? All this I will never know. My hopes and desires will always be a dream. Reality holds me back. Even if I want to, I can't move forward. It is difficult, but I can live with it. And as long as that's the case, that's who I am: The man in the mirror. |